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lol i feel heartbroken.
which is like SOO wtf because its not supposed to be what im feeling.
ayy.
its not suposed to be the feeling that im feeling.
HAHAHAH great now i dont make sense.

talking to jordan about languages and nationality all around the world
and now i am fully LOLing
lol "what about chinese?"
"chinese isnt a language."
HAHAHAHAHAHHA like wtf.

lolol.
went like about EVERYWHERE yesterday with my mummy.
we fully bonded.like properly for the first time ever. hahaha.
watching The Breakfast Club. fucking hilarious lololol.

lol okay back to mummybonding.
we havent even talked properly since like the middle ages. shes been like busy with her stuff and i was busy studying LOL. but then yesterday we fully went everywhere and it started off kinda bad but then it got better =] had some lol times especially Vain Keyne at the lights haha. OMG ask me msn for details =]

hahahah.
anyway.
I SUCK AT BLOGGING. people know. i seriusly talk better. like when i talk, endless story pour out of my LOUD mouth. but when i start typing, my mind goes dot dot dot and my head goes blablabla and thoughts running through head are in CHINESE and i start not making sense.

whalaa.

so yeah. that hotguy in NewSave omg.. he was like a dream. lol and he spoke perfect english =]
oh yeah texted him today. he replied. hahahaha. and i miss B and A already. and yesterday when we planned to but didnt get to actually meet up.. i felt hurt. like i know it wasnt his fault. but i felt hurt all the same. haha have this BAD feeling i wont ever see him again. T__T

LOL jordan. babe. i havent finished hahahahha

put up posters advertising BABYSITTING. hopefully i get jobs. coz i am seriusly broke at the moment, no kidding. anyone need a babysitter anytime? ><

feeling weird >< hopefully going towning with twin tomorrow.
hahah compare my blog to twin. my blog is like zero-sucker-gay blog that doesnt even make sense. her one is deeeeep. real blog stuff. LOL i didnt know i suck at blogging too =] but aparently i am. hahaha

I MISS HIM ALREADY
talked to ayumi today at least. so its good. =]

CHAT OF THE DAY
boytwin && keyne.
k= "oi look at these stripper heels omg"
m= "If you wear that i'll sex you"
k= "you cant sex me you already have someone to sex"

to me this was very LOL.

anyway.
i have credits =] i have the poweeeeeerr now. hahaha. going camping soon, but havent received camping list= = DOBULYEWTEEEF ayy. how am i suposed to pack without camping list??!
im okay now. hurt that people i love have left for good. but i'll get over it =] meet new people next year. and hopefully fall in love >< thought past love-experiences havent been that.. havent been that LOVELY. hopfully the new ones will be more memorable =]

jordan DONT ARGUE WITH ME. hahahah
but he always wins= =' sigh
AAARGh. but still thanks babe =]

AT THE MO NOTHING ELSE IS COMING TO HEAD.
may add to this later on. or start new one ><

peaceout. -KEYNE<3

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AND IT KEEPS GETTING BETTER WORSE.
this is helping a LOT. a hole fucking LOT.
PEOPLE LEAVING ME updated list
1. JORDAN CHI.
2. banx.
3. ayumi.
4. mai.
5. julia.
6. ally.

and ayumi went without me saying goodbye. without goodbye hug. goodbye kiss. goodbye meetup GOODBYE FUCKING ANYTHING. and banx goes tomorrow. i dont wanna let him go just like that. this is all fucking bullshit.
AND NOW JORDAN IS GOING TOO. so not fucking helping my situation. the list gets longer and longer. and i dont even wanna THINK about end of year13 because then i would probably die. LIFE GOES ON ETC i fucking know but... but i dontknow. thoughts in my head are in italianese but i speak in wangkangnese.

hahahah what am i even doing. i cant think.
if banx doesnt ask me to meetup with him before he goes than i will know that i dont mean as much to him as he means to me. so okay. no worries. byebye. seeyah.

so funny how 2oo8 is my year full of new friends. and 2oo9 would be my year full of friends NOT THERE ANYMORE.

blablabla.
watching stupid makeup and SLIM DOWN ads on TV. this is my life.

IM SORRY IF I EVER ANNOYED ANYONE READING THIS.
im really sorry. i dont know why im doing this now. like im gonna die or somthing LOL. but i know i can be real annoying sometimes and im serius umm wtf HAHAHA just like thankyou heaps for putting up and surviving mee. i really appreciate it. hahaha.

= =

LOL chat of the day.
WILSONO DA BILSONO made me a song. =]

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JORDAN.my chichi* baby.
im here for you. YES I AM. we're both like dead stuck. in this invisible muddy mud. but we'll get through this. YES WE WILL. and dont think i dont know how you feel. i SO DO. i just lost 2 of my bestfriends. OKAY, so we're not fighting and we're not yelling I HATE YOU FUCK OFF to each other. but theyre out of my life all the same. and the other guy problem. haha. i think i'd rather be fuly fighting with him than this. coz at least i'll stil be on speaking terms with him. still communicating. but this. no. nothing. nanananannoneZERO.

today is so fucking full on. i think im sick. woke up at midnight. 9.29am. jesus. went to church. sang choir with a sore throat and a omgidontwanttoknow what kind of sound i made. survived that. went to end of year choir party. no not party. more like eat until you dont fit your current clothes event. had like 15 million slices of mudcake.YUM but yeah. after that. went off with family to get my bro to his friends swimming bday party. full of boys (which is gooood) but all of them at the wrong age. (at least 5 years too young). so yeah. took photos in car. LIKE HAHAHHA. then umm. stayed at their house for awhile. THEIR DOG IS SO CUTE. then theres the other one next door who like fully JUMPED AT ME when he saw me. now. why couldnt that dog be some hot guy?? who would just jump at me?? hahahaha. head fucked up as you can all seeee.

i am all G.
hhahhhahaah.

chat of the day. LOL
CELINE= "oi im sick. my throat hurts."
KEYNE= "omg is it one of those sickness that affect only people who talk alot???"
CELINE= "no i dont think so. if it was, you'd be dead."
i love my mushy mushroom forever.<3

so lets see. where wuz i.
no no i dont want bold. jeez.
anyway. now.
ayumi is gone. banx is leaving tuesday. i feel like i have written (typed, said) this sentence 15 million times already. but its still not getting over my head. i still have this feeling that. next year. things will be the same. like this is a dream. i'll wake up soon. so its OK. but its not. so i dont know what will happen to me next year. hopefully i dont kill/make the other people still here hate me.

BIG SHOUTOUT FOR PEOPLE READING THIS.
WHOS JUST LOST SOMEONE CLOSE TO THEM.
you. are. not. alone.
trademark quote from my beluved twin.<3

omg.mum's had me ona death sentence.i have to be out mawnlowering the lawn at 5 today. like why. LIKE WHYYYY.

i dont think anyone can help me. though jordan and erika and jordan did. and wilsono/boytwin. though they dont really realise it. =]

ILY all forever and I FUCKING MEAN THIS.
'kkay.

<3keyne.03.24pm.07dec08.

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have nothing to do. waiting for the "DATE" with my cousin at 2.30.
= = muchh i know. but i havent chatted properly with her for ages so we have to make this work.
so just rambling on about my feelings yeah? like etc etc. LOL.

BURGERKING today.lol much. went to them slide things and TOOK PHOTOS. duh. like of course.

haha apparently well i have this really weird feeling at the moment. i dont even knoe what it is let alone put a word for it. it's like a mixture of sadness. jealousy. disappointness. scaredness. empty. etc. I DONT KNOW. but its annoying the hell outta me.

OMFG twin's right. its fucking loneliness. like you know everyone in the world but they arent friends with you. dot dot dot...

btw, a big HAPPY BEEDAY for my boytwin. ILY forever boytwin =]

hahaha.
no not hahaha. i dont even know why i'm hahaha-ing. theres nothing to hahaha about. ayumi's gone. gone gone like forever. i will never see her again. 

 "oi who knows. maybe you'll se her again in future."
OI WHO KNOWS. MAYBE I WONT.
and if i dont, WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO ABOUT IT. IT DOESNT FUCKING COME WITH A GUARANTEE SIGN.

i need a punching bag. just like my boytwin. i cant use sister coz mum will use me afterwards.
so.
someone buy me a punching bag? promise i'll use it everyday?

and im STILL. NOT. OVER. HIM.
why. not. god. T______T
it so doesnt help that hes fully taken. and fully enjoying life. and im NOT.
HA HA HA HA HA. see my lol. see me lolling.

umm. ayumi. i will soon make a proper real entry JUST FOR YOU. and you have to read it okay? im so pissed i cant give you a goodbye anything. stupid NO FUCKING CREDIT phone. omg. please dont forget me. COZ I WONT EVER FORGET YOU<3

I'LL BE AWAY ON CAMP =]
from 18 december to 21.
away for 4 days. i'll miss all my other people of courz. but I'LL BE BAAAAAACK. no worz.
celine you biitch. dont you dare ditch me for some other guy yes?
L O L.

ummm.
arial.
courier new.
times new roman.
verdana.
tahoma.
verdana it is. i likee it =]

random muchh, keynee?

E R I K A.<3
we're not at our best at the moment. LIKE DUH. and we're blaming it on PMS. but its not the 100% reason yes? but we dont know the real reason so lets just blame it on Miss Bitchy Pms yes? lol. but lets just forget all those bullshit about us being unloved. I LOVE YOU 24/7 265/1 or whatever else okay? who cares about boys twin. as long as i got you. i dont care if i die SINGLE =]
so lets just help each other get through this (hopefully) 'stage'. people come people go? feelings come feelings go. so do PMSes. sooo yeah. at the moment all my HAHAHAs are sarcastic and i speak in WANGANESE. so thanks for still putting up with it. i cant even put up with myself =] without you i dont survive twin.

FUCK.YOU.PMS.
grrrrrrrrrrr. >=(


<3keyne.1.38am.7dec08.